Today I am getting my hair cut. It's going to be even shorter than it is now so BE PREPARED! I know some of you told me not to do it but I don't care. Maybe I'll post a picture later...
You know that feeling when you've been driving for forever and you finally get home...but you don't really remember how? This is how everyday feels to me. Like today, I was sitting in class (before it started) and some lady walked in. She asked me a question and I answered and then she left. Afterwards, I couldn't really remember if it had happened or not. It was just a blur. I've decided this is why I don't have any real emotions. I'm a pretty cheery person 99% of the time, but that's because nothing is real to me. I never have problems, I never really worry too much, I never cry about real-life situations...things that should bother me just don't. And then every 2 months or so, all that stuff hits me and I lay on the sofa for a few days, just taking it all in, because I know that any second all those feelings are gonna be gone again and I'll go right back to not feeling and not caring. I haven't decided yet if this whole thing is good or bad. I mean, so many people go through life caring SO much that they are constantly hurt and let down and I'm pretty glad I don't have to go through that...but I don't know. Maybe everyone feels like this and I'm not that weird after all. I'll probably never know, but I don't really care. It's worked for me so far and I'm not unhappy or anything like that. I just think sometimes that maybe something's wrong with me. Probably not...Oh well. Enough thinking for one day.
12 years ago
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